1st Photos!

So here it is....my first photos.... OH GOD! Here it is...I'm ready for this and I'm going to do this. I'm going to send this website off to everyone I know in hopes to be encouraged and inspired by the people I love in my life.

So I'm starting out with my trainer at 252 lbs...God this is so hard to even write down! How did I ever let myself get to be this heavy...I don't know??? I guess it's just a bit of everything, but most of all it's my eating. I take complete ownership in what I've become, but it's not going to be anymore! I am changing my life for the better, to be healthy and happy. We are trying for our first child with lots of difficulties along the way.

I am here to change my life...it starts NOW!

Come along for the ride, it may have it's bump and turns...but eventually I'll get to my destination!

So here is what I'm looking to do, take off 101 lbs in 1 YEAR! I started off this journey at an embaressing 267 lbs!!! It breaks my heart and brings me to tears just to admit this to you. I am now down to 252 lbs and lowering! I am putting my struggles and accomplishments out there as I want to feel accountable to every one of you, my friends, my family...with your support and love I can do anything! I am not doing this for you though...I'm not doing it for my husband....I'm doing this all for ME!!! For once in my life I am going to be selfish and take back what I deserve, to be healthy!

This is probably the hardest thing I've ever had to do, admit to the world of my obese size and weight! I'm sitting here in tears right now wondering what everyone will think, will they look at me differently...will they be discusted? At this point I've had enough though, I've put this off for too long, with my ups and downs...I'd lose weight but I would never come close to reaching my goal. Why am I doing it this time??? Because I've had enough...I'm ready to do things I could never do.

I was just thinking back to recently when my husband and i took a cruise and were looking for shore excursions to do. It makes me so sad to tell you all that I couldn't do many of the activities as you had to be under 200 lbs. This hurts me so much to tell you this, to admit that I've been so limited in life because of this problem. I look back to all the kids in school that would tease, that would call you names....I think sometimes you just start believing that you are that person they say you are. So many hurtful things were said when I was a child that really broke me. I remember coming home from school so many days and running upstairs in my bed to cry...I would just lay there crying not understanding "why"? Well I now know why, I have the power to change it and that's exactly what I'm doing.

With the help and tools from my excellent trainer Rob Lagana I will take off 86 lbs which joint with the 15 lbs I have already lost will bring me to my goal of 101 lbs! http://www.laganafitness.com/

Thank you Rob for giving me the tools to take back my life, to give my children a healthy life I only dreamed of as a child!

So here it is...my first set of photos. I will update these photos every month to compare so we can all see my progress along the way.

HERE WE GO!!! Choooooo Choooooooo!