So today has been one heck of a day!!! It started out alright although I'm not much of a "wake up at 6:15am kinda girls...but I do it anyways for work. So my alarm went off at 5:15am in the morning. I have this wierd logic about sleeping. I always set my alarm clock 1 hour ahead of when I need to wak up, this way I can hit snooze every 15 mins for an hour and feel like I've slept in. You know when you get to hit snooze and it feels so good because you know that you get that extra 15 mins you so need....WELL I get that X 4 every morning! It's fantastic. Not only do I set my alarm clock 1 hour before I actually ahve to get up...I also have the time on my clock set 1 hour ahead of every other clock in the house. So when it would say 6:15 on a regular clock in the house, mine would say 7:15. It's so stupid but I feel if the time is later then I've actually been able to sleep in longer....it's depressing to wake up and see 6:15 on a clock...I'd rather see 7:15 :) So yeah that's my really un-smart theory on sleeping and waking up. I guess this really tells that I'm not much of a morning gal'! The worst part of it all is if I sleep in...then I have to figure out in my half dazed brain what time it really is in the real world...process it for a few seconds and then figure out if I'm late for whatever I needed to be up for. I'm sure this process creates more of a stress than anything for me, but hey....makes me happier in the morning!
So yeah, got off to an okay start today. Things seemed like a normal day...>UNTIL...all the daycare kids decided THIS day would be THE day...that they would all have their breakdowns and tantrums for Tanya....OH LORD...what a day this is going to be. It was one thing after another...when this happens I start to get clumsy with everything I'm doing...I spill milk all over the counter when I'm trying to get it in a cup...I'm dropping things left right and center....God...what a day! BUT...like they always say "don't cry over spilled milk!", Right? Well believe me I'm not crying over it but it really didn't put me in the greatest mood.
So here I am writing in my blog to relieve whatever little tensions this day has brought about thus far.
Tomorrow is a new day...I'll just keep telling myself that! And hopefully I won't be any more clumsy than I've already been cuz God knows I might just lose it! LOL
Geeeeeeez...It's just been "one of those days!"
I've been staying on track though with my eating if that helps....LOL....Don't get me wrong, I felt like eating out the entire house like I used to today...but I kept my mind on my goal...and I resisted the ohhhhhh so yummy temptations...Mike and the kids were having chicken nuggets and fries with oranges and veggies...good lord!!! I told Mike to take all the extra nuggets out of sight as I knew I was having a weaker moment and didn't want to be tempted for another second...who knows what would have happened!!! I'm only human...right?!??!
Well I hope you're all having a better day than myself! Cheers!
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
A Blah Day! Da
Have you ever had those days where you're just lazy, exhausted and don't want to do much of anything??? Well yesterday was one for me, I felt low on energy and exhausted. I went for my ultrasound at the fertility clinic and found out I do in fact have 2 ovaries LOL. Every other time they couldn't see the second ovary but we've finally confirmed that it's there! We're moving along in the process to have a baby....and I can't wait! It's been a very long...sometimes depressing journey. I get so upset sometimes to see some people with kids that shouldn't even have them...that hurt them or dis-own them...it breaks my heart! Sometimes leaves you asking the question "why?"
Well last night I completely forgot I had to workout...lol don't know why? I workout 6 days a week, don't know why I "thought" I didn't have a workout to do last night? So I psyched myself up to get to the gym for my cardio. It was really rough...I was tired and really didn't want to go...but I DID!
I pushed out my workout as hard as I could...had a good sweat going on and came home to have our supper. We watched Biggest Loser again last night, I don't think it's possible that I don't cry during that show. Poor Danny got voted off last night, he was the heaviest contestant to have ever been on the show. I was so sad knowing he got voted off...but he brought it home...and changed his life. They showed he's lost 101 lbs since getting voted off...I was SOoooooo happy for him. Needless to say, I was so proud of him!
Well today is off to a better start, had my omelet which was delicious as always!
OH MY GOODNESS....back to yesterday! I forgot to tell you about my trip to COSTCO...Damn you Costco and your free samples!!! I used to love gracing the grocery isles of costco for their free samples...it was most of the time the best part of the trip for me. But yesterday...it was the worst! I had all these delicious aroma's of sausage, bruschetta etc. wafting through my nose. Grrrrr, I look at the ladys with a nice smile, looked at what they had to offer...AND kept on walking! I didn't try one single sample. I knew if I had one I'd have em' all...so I stayed away. It's funny how when something is hard, and you stick to your guns...you end up coming out feeling proud instead of disappointed in yourself.
LOL just had to tell that quick story...Moral of the story is...I hate you Costco!!!
Tanya
Well last night I completely forgot I had to workout...lol don't know why? I workout 6 days a week, don't know why I "thought" I didn't have a workout to do last night? So I psyched myself up to get to the gym for my cardio. It was really rough...I was tired and really didn't want to go...but I DID!
I pushed out my workout as hard as I could...had a good sweat going on and came home to have our supper. We watched Biggest Loser again last night, I don't think it's possible that I don't cry during that show. Poor Danny got voted off last night, he was the heaviest contestant to have ever been on the show. I was so sad knowing he got voted off...but he brought it home...and changed his life. They showed he's lost 101 lbs since getting voted off...I was SOoooooo happy for him. Needless to say, I was so proud of him!
Well today is off to a better start, had my omelet which was delicious as always!
OH MY GOODNESS....back to yesterday! I forgot to tell you about my trip to COSTCO...Damn you Costco and your free samples!!! I used to love gracing the grocery isles of costco for their free samples...it was most of the time the best part of the trip for me. But yesterday...it was the worst! I had all these delicious aroma's of sausage, bruschetta etc. wafting through my nose. Grrrrr, I look at the ladys with a nice smile, looked at what they had to offer...AND kept on walking! I didn't try one single sample. I knew if I had one I'd have em' all...so I stayed away. It's funny how when something is hard, and you stick to your guns...you end up coming out feeling proud instead of disappointed in yourself.
LOL just had to tell that quick story...Moral of the story is...I hate you Costco!!!
Tanya
Monday, January 26, 2009
A bath will do ya good...not before a workout though!
A bath does the body good...relaxes you, and releases any stresses you may have. So yesterday (Sunday) I decided to take a bath in the morning which was oh so nice! I love taking a bath, I never used to take them very much but I am starting to take them more. I've decided I'm going to start taking better care of myself both physically and emotionally. I am now taking time for myself to have a nice bath and relax once in a while...you guys should try it! turn out the lights, put a few candles on and get into the hot bath. A little bit of soft music is always nice as well, I can't think of many things that are much more relaxing than that...and FREE!
So I took my bath for about 45 minutes, it was fantastic. I got out and made my breakfast and then decided I would go to the gym for my cardio. Mike was working today so I went by myself. Have you ever signed out a machine at the gym only to find someone has just taken your machine and didn't sign it out? Grrrrrr this frustrates me...you take the time to sign it out then you before you make it to the machine, someone has stepped on and started their workout. At our gym...there are 2 cardio levels...there is a private area that only has about 8 machines and then the cardio level which has about 30 machines. I prefer to use the private area as it's quiet, I can concentrate and I feel more confident in there. In the cardio room with more machines, I feel intimidated at times. Most of the people in there are at the top of their fitness performance, etc. So I signed out 1 of the 2 treadmills in teh private area. I went to put my coat in the locker and came out to find a guy on my machine. I went to make sure I signed out the right machine...I did. This guy keeps looking over at me and must know that I've signed it out as I'm looking at his machine to make sure that's the one I signed out for that time slot. I didn't have the nerve to cut him off of his workout. I felt bad as he was a larger guy as well. I was thinking to myself...hmmmm maybe he's just like me and gets intimidated by the upstairs cardio room. I thought, well I could put up a stink about this or I could just march my butt upstairs and get over this ridiculous fear I have. So that's what I did, I left this guy to his workout that maybe he'd feel comfortable in the private room like I do...and went upstairs. It wasn't so bad...I signed out the #6 treadmill and away I went. I began walking quickly and then started my run. I couldn't last very long before I had to slow down. I ran for almost 5 minutes and couldn't go a second farther running. I know Rob my trainer said that I would have my weaker days at the beginning and I guess this was one of them! I had no energy at all today! I was just pushing myself as far as I could go today.
Have you ever had that feeling when you get off a treadmill that you're not even walking on the ground....like you feel your legs moving but you feel like you're floating. When someone walks in front of you, you feel like you're going to walk right into them because you can't stop. I had that today...it's wierd! I was also very dizzy...I think it was just a low energy day.
All in all it was a pretty good day....a lazy one but it was good. I still got my A - double - you know what to the gym today so that's all that matters!
I did some shopping after that, god does shopping ever do the body good!
Oh yes, I forgot to post for Saturday night. We went to a guys 50th birthday who works with Mike. I didn't really know anyone there but felt okay in the situation, everyone was very nice! I was doing great until they pulled out these sandwiches....on croissants!!!! OMG they looked so delicious...with their 2 slices of swiss cheese, their turkey and ham meat...lettuce and all the fixing...and boy did they look good!
Mmmmmmm so off I went over to the "goodies" table to grab a plate....Before I wouldn't have put a second thought into my head about taking one or 2 pieces of that sandwich! Now I had to think twice...it was so tempting...almost calling my name....
but I didn't need it so I passed!!! I grabbed my veggies and fruits, a few cubes of cheese and off I went, I was satisfied with that...I reallly was. Sure I would have loved to have that sandwich but it's not going ot get me to where I need to go....I was proud of myself for sticking to my guns
I had water the whole time we were there, downed 2 bottles. They offered me this delicious strawberry orange alcoholic punch that looked OMG...delicious...but I told them no thank you. They said oh one glass won't hurt you...but that's the thing with me, I know one glass could turn into 2 or 10! So I stayed away completely knowing if I didn't get a taste of evil I wouldn't want more!
SO I guess that's it...today is a good day...off to a good start.....
Hope you guys have a good...cold Monday!
Tan
So I took my bath for about 45 minutes, it was fantastic. I got out and made my breakfast and then decided I would go to the gym for my cardio. Mike was working today so I went by myself. Have you ever signed out a machine at the gym only to find someone has just taken your machine and didn't sign it out? Grrrrrr this frustrates me...you take the time to sign it out then you before you make it to the machine, someone has stepped on and started their workout. At our gym...there are 2 cardio levels...there is a private area that only has about 8 machines and then the cardio level which has about 30 machines. I prefer to use the private area as it's quiet, I can concentrate and I feel more confident in there. In the cardio room with more machines, I feel intimidated at times. Most of the people in there are at the top of their fitness performance, etc. So I signed out 1 of the 2 treadmills in teh private area. I went to put my coat in the locker and came out to find a guy on my machine. I went to make sure I signed out the right machine...I did. This guy keeps looking over at me and must know that I've signed it out as I'm looking at his machine to make sure that's the one I signed out for that time slot. I didn't have the nerve to cut him off of his workout. I felt bad as he was a larger guy as well. I was thinking to myself...hmmmm maybe he's just like me and gets intimidated by the upstairs cardio room. I thought, well I could put up a stink about this or I could just march my butt upstairs and get over this ridiculous fear I have. So that's what I did, I left this guy to his workout that maybe he'd feel comfortable in the private room like I do...and went upstairs. It wasn't so bad...I signed out the #6 treadmill and away I went. I began walking quickly and then started my run. I couldn't last very long before I had to slow down. I ran for almost 5 minutes and couldn't go a second farther running. I know Rob my trainer said that I would have my weaker days at the beginning and I guess this was one of them! I had no energy at all today! I was just pushing myself as far as I could go today.
Have you ever had that feeling when you get off a treadmill that you're not even walking on the ground....like you feel your legs moving but you feel like you're floating. When someone walks in front of you, you feel like you're going to walk right into them because you can't stop. I had that today...it's wierd! I was also very dizzy...I think it was just a low energy day.
All in all it was a pretty good day....a lazy one but it was good. I still got my A - double - you know what to the gym today so that's all that matters!
I did some shopping after that, god does shopping ever do the body good!
Oh yes, I forgot to post for Saturday night. We went to a guys 50th birthday who works with Mike. I didn't really know anyone there but felt okay in the situation, everyone was very nice! I was doing great until they pulled out these sandwiches....on croissants!!!! OMG they looked so delicious...with their 2 slices of swiss cheese, their turkey and ham meat...lettuce and all the fixing...and boy did they look good!
Mmmmmmm so off I went over to the "goodies" table to grab a plate....Before I wouldn't have put a second thought into my head about taking one or 2 pieces of that sandwich! Now I had to think twice...it was so tempting...almost calling my name....
but I didn't need it so I passed!!! I grabbed my veggies and fruits, a few cubes of cheese and off I went, I was satisfied with that...I reallly was. Sure I would have loved to have that sandwich but it's not going ot get me to where I need to go....I was proud of myself for sticking to my guns
I had water the whole time we were there, downed 2 bottles. They offered me this delicious strawberry orange alcoholic punch that looked OMG...delicious...but I told them no thank you. They said oh one glass won't hurt you...but that's the thing with me, I know one glass could turn into 2 or 10! So I stayed away completely knowing if I didn't get a taste of evil I wouldn't want more!
SO I guess that's it...today is a good day...off to a good start.....
Hope you guys have a good...cold Monday!
Tan
Saturday, January 24, 2009
RESULTS ARE IN...first week after training with Rob...
Robbie...all I gotta say is YOU"RE MY HERO!!!! Changing up my diet and incorporating the right kind of exercises for my body did it for me! I wasn't really expecting a huge loss as I've already been on a diet for a little while now.
Curious on how much I lost...oh I'm going to leave you hangin!
So I did my final workout last night, as if I was on biggest loser. You know when they do their "final workout"...it really does sound so final...like it's dooms-day! Well I busted my ass this week, and gave it my all. I pushed myself harder than I thought I could go...and I made myself proud.
I woke up this morning (Saturday) to Mike running up the stairs and saying..."time for your weigh in...he was standing right in front of the scale just as excited as myself! So I hopped on that lovely white scale with silver accents which measure my body fat and water. The scale is very scary, it can either be your best friend or worst enemy. Well I'll have to tell you that this week it was my ......
.....
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BEST FRIEND!
I jumped on that scale and watched the little "wait" bars go across the screen as it calculated my weight. 248.0!!!!!!! I lost 4 lbs this week and OMG was I ever happy! I've hit my first goal and feel more proud than ever...I told you I wouldn't let you guys down! I am sooo sooo proud to say I"M BELOW 250 lbs!!!!! OMG saying that brings me to tears, but this time it's happy tears! God I'm on cloud nine yet again.
Thank you so much for your support....you guys are really giving me that extra push to give 110% every single time...Like my friend Joania says:
"Two thousand nine is Two Thousand MINE!
Well I hope you all have a fantastic day...I know I will now!
Off to eat my 2 egg omelet for breakfast...Mmmmmmm I love my life!
Curious on how much I lost...oh I'm going to leave you hangin!
So I did my final workout last night, as if I was on biggest loser. You know when they do their "final workout"...it really does sound so final...like it's dooms-day! Well I busted my ass this week, and gave it my all. I pushed myself harder than I thought I could go...and I made myself proud.
I woke up this morning (Saturday) to Mike running up the stairs and saying..."time for your weigh in...he was standing right in front of the scale just as excited as myself! So I hopped on that lovely white scale with silver accents which measure my body fat and water. The scale is very scary, it can either be your best friend or worst enemy. Well I'll have to tell you that this week it was my ......
.....
....
BEST FRIEND!
I jumped on that scale and watched the little "wait" bars go across the screen as it calculated my weight. 248.0!!!!!!! I lost 4 lbs this week and OMG was I ever happy! I've hit my first goal and feel more proud than ever...I told you I wouldn't let you guys down! I am sooo sooo proud to say I"M BELOW 250 lbs!!!!! OMG saying that brings me to tears, but this time it's happy tears! God I'm on cloud nine yet again.
Thank you so much for your support....you guys are really giving me that extra push to give 110% every single time...Like my friend Joania says:
"Two thousand nine is Two Thousand MINE!
Well I hope you all have a fantastic day...I know I will now!
Off to eat my 2 egg omelet for breakfast...Mmmmmmm I love my life!
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Big accomplishment..I said I CAN instead of I CANT!
Oh MY GOSH...I am on the hugest high today! I finally feel free...!
So tonight was cardio night at the gym and before walking in there I told myself I was going to push myself to my limits...as far as I could go. My cardio is for 20 mins. So I stepped on that treadmill, hit the 20 mins and away I went...increasing my speed to 6.0. I ran...wait...I RAN for 1 km. For anyone that knows me knows I don't RUN...thats's just trouble! But I did it, I pushed myself...as hard as I could...I then slowed down, walked for a few minutes..then sped up to 6.5 for another .40 km...OMG I came home on cloud 9!!! I can't believe I did it!!! I kept thinking in my head of all the people rooting me on...I'm going to make you all proud! This one was for you guys!
So tonight was cardio night at the gym and before walking in there I told myself I was going to push myself to my limits...as far as I could go. My cardio is for 20 mins. So I stepped on that treadmill, hit the 20 mins and away I went...increasing my speed to 6.0. I ran...wait...I RAN for 1 km. For anyone that knows me knows I don't RUN...thats's just trouble! But I did it, I pushed myself...as hard as I could...I then slowed down, walked for a few minutes..then sped up to 6.5 for another .40 km...OMG I came home on cloud 9!!! I can't believe I did it!!! I kept thinking in my head of all the people rooting me on...I'm going to make you all proud! This one was for you guys!
A New Day
This is a whole new day for me...I woke up feeling good, I actually feel like I'm on top of the world today.
For the FIRST time in my life, I don't have to hide anymore. I don't have to be ashamed of who I am...I just need to focus on change. This has been an amazing journey so far for me...I feel so empowered by all the love and support I've already received!
I can't believe how many people have already joined my group in support of me! I hope that one day I can inspire many of you to make your own changes in life, whether it be weight loss or anything else that has been holding you back.
I feel like this is a year for change, good things are going to happen this year!
Well after I posted my page last night, I got a little down to hear that someone had said "OMG I didn't know she was THAT big!" It hurt to hear this, but I know it's the truth. It's hard to hear the truth sometimes in life! I am not letting anything get me down in this fight for my life, I'm coming out a champion!
Today is a new day...and I feel great! Hope you all feel fantabulous today too!
For the FIRST time in my life, I don't have to hide anymore. I don't have to be ashamed of who I am...I just need to focus on change. This has been an amazing journey so far for me...I feel so empowered by all the love and support I've already received!
I can't believe how many people have already joined my group in support of me! I hope that one day I can inspire many of you to make your own changes in life, whether it be weight loss or anything else that has been holding you back.
I feel like this is a year for change, good things are going to happen this year!
Well after I posted my page last night, I got a little down to hear that someone had said "OMG I didn't know she was THAT big!" It hurt to hear this, but I know it's the truth. It's hard to hear the truth sometimes in life! I am not letting anything get me down in this fight for my life, I'm coming out a champion!
Today is a new day...and I feel great! Hope you all feel fantabulous today too!
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Nothing in Life is FREE...but tonight it was for me!
Tonight was such a freeing feeling. I finally sent everyone one of you my blog. This was such a hard thing for me to do. It took me weeks to build up the courage...BUT ...I did it! I feel so unleashed...like there is nothing in my way.
For so long I have hid behind a wall...A wall that wouldn't let me get hurt. I always hoped people thought I was smaller than I really am...but I was only kidding myself. This is who I am and it's who I needed to change.
Well this is a huge step in my journey to being healthy.
Thank you to all of you that have already joined my facebook group! The support has been overwhelming already!
I'll leave you all with this:
"Don't EVER tell yourself you can't do it, if you don't think you can, then find someone to show you how"
I love this saying, it's on my inspiration wall here at home and I love it! Really sets a tone for anything in life...no matter what your struggle is, we all have them!
Have a great night, Tan
For so long I have hid behind a wall...A wall that wouldn't let me get hurt. I always hoped people thought I was smaller than I really am...but I was only kidding myself. This is who I am and it's who I needed to change.
Well this is a huge step in my journey to being healthy.
Thank you to all of you that have already joined my facebook group! The support has been overwhelming already!
I'll leave you all with this:
"Don't EVER tell yourself you can't do it, if you don't think you can, then find someone to show you how"
I love this saying, it's on my inspiration wall here at home and I love it! Really sets a tone for anything in life...no matter what your struggle is, we all have them!
Have a great night, Tan
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